i'm really tired right now. on my desk is a small yellow pad of paper, a drum machine manual, Tao Daily Meditations by Deng Miind-Dao, a broken laser pen, camoflage walkie-talkies, a promotional bucket for the movie "Antz", several CD's, a Christmas cup full of change, an unused lava light. how am i doing? this sucks, huh? i'm trying.